I walked home from the public swimming pool, having swum my mandatory forty laps. Thinking-time in the pool helped wash away my nights on call, if only to refresh me for the next. The clay path skirted the Todd’s dry riverbed, where I knew many of my Aboriginal patients camped—not that they were visible, except for the flicker of a campfire at night. They’d told me the coarse sand stayed warm, and with a few blankets and some grog onboard, the cold was not so bad. I hadn’t yet ventured into the riverbed; I felt threatened by the camp dogs and my fear of snakes.
Living in Alice, I missed the sight of water. On all the maps, the Todd River appeared as a great blue serpent winding its way through town and between the ranges. The reality was an expanse of dusty beige sand, lined by stands of river red gums. It was merely a promise of water that could not be quenched.
On a stinking hot afternoon, I had no objections to working in the emergency department; at least the hospital was air- conditioned. I would follow up all the patients whom the junior doctors had called me about overnight—a local bitten by a snake (he only went out to collect his washing); some youths ejected at high speed from a car near Tennant Creek; a young mother assaulted with a star picket; a child with an infected dog bite to her hand.
I was in the office when one of the nurses, Dianne, thrust an ECG before me. The heart tracing was perilously slow and deranged. ‘Whose is this?’ I asked her.
‘It’s Bundy’s.’ Dianne motioned with her thumb to the resuscitation bay.
Bundy Morgan had been brought in from a different riverbed, a community some 500 kilometres away. I walked over
to his bedside, where Dianne fussed around, connecting him to the monitoring equipment. I saw on the chart that Bundy was only fifty-five years old, but he looked eighty. He appeared to be semi-conscious, lying on the trolley in dirty rolled-up moleskins and no shirt.
I watched him for a few moments. He looked dry. His black skin was coated in red dust, reminding me of one of those fancy chocolate truffles. His grey hair and beard were matted. An ammoniacal odour rose from his body. His eyes were closed and I gently rested my hand on his shoulder. ‘How’s it going, Bundy?’
Bundy opened his eyes, glanced up, then quickly looked away. ‘No good,’ he slurred. His brown teeth were coated and slimy. The whites of his eyes were yellowed and bloodshot around the dark centres.
‘I’m the doctor.’
He nodded. His eyelids drifted down and closed again. ‘Your heart’s no good at the moment. That’s why
you’re not feeling well. We need to do some tests.’ ‘Fuck that,’ he grumbled.
Dianne wrote all her observations on his chart at the foot of the trolley. ‘You been drinking, Bundy?’ She grabbed his hand for a fingerprick glucose test.
‘I wish,’ he chuckled. ‘Not today.’
‘Hmm … sugar’s normal,’ Dianne informed me. There was a sudden ruckus breaking out at the triage
desk. A woman screamed ‘Let me in!’ and I heard something smash. Dianne rushed with the other staff to the front desk to help, and a security call blared over the hospital’s PA.
‘That’s my wife.’ Bundy tipped his head back in a wheezy laugh. His abdominal muscles heaved up and down.
I was gathering the equipment to take his blood: swabs, tourniquet, needles and tubes. ‘What’s she so mad about?’ I asked.
‘I dunno. She’s just mad at me.’
I picked up my tourniquet. ‘Which arm?’
He did not respond.
I applied it to one of his arms, then the other, examining them closely. His limbs felt as light as driftwood, his veins were impossible to pick through the coating of red dust. ‘You’ll need a wash before I can find your veins.’
A small angry woman, no doubt Bundy’s wife, suddenly stormed through the department. Barefoot and equally red- dusted, she scuttled to the bedside and punched Bundy in the upper arm.
Dianne had chased her inside. ‘Ay, ay, ay … Christa, lay off him.’
‘Why’d you do that?’ Bundy moaned at his wife.
‘You haven’t been home for days!’ Christa lunged again, but Dianne managed to intercept the punch. She gripped the small woman by the wrist.
Christa spat at Dianne, only narrowly missing her face.
I tried to intervene. ‘I’m sorry, Mrs Morgan, you’ll have to wait outside if you’re going to be like that.’ I took a deep breath, in and out, and spoke calmly. ‘Your husband is very sick. It’s his heart.’
‘I don’t care. He’s been lovin’ someone else,’ Christa hissed.
Three hospital security officers arrived at the bedside. ‘Come with us,’ one of them said, prying Christa from Dianne’s grip.
‘Christa, we need to look after Bundy now,’ I said. At least she didn’t spit at me. The security officer led her to the waiting room, his large hand guiding her back as she stumbled across the department.
I returned to studying Bundy’s ECG. I realised that he had very high blood potassium, the result of kidney failure. ‘We’d better get some urgent bloods,’ I told Dianne. ‘He’s in renal failure.’
Dianne nodded and started to sponge down Bundy’s sinewy neck, bony shoulders and gaunt arms. I looked at his arms again to see if any veins were visible. Nothing. We’d have
to look at his legs instead.
Dianne cleaned Bundy’s legs while I fastened the
tourniquet around his thigh. I felt something under his dirty moleskins and rolled them up higher. There was a plastic catheter, caked in the red dust, implanted in a large vein of his thigh.
‘Look at this,’ I showed the catheter to Dianne. ‘It’s his dialysis catheter. He’s a renal patient.’
‘It’s a wonder he’s not septic from that line.’ Dianne shook her head and began swabbing the tubing with antiseptic.
‘Let’s clean it up and see if we can get blood out of it.’ I picked up Bundy’s medical file and found a letter from the renal team, intended for his family doctor. It stated Bundy had ‘end- stage renal failure secondary to type II diabetes’, but the renal team considered him to be ‘non-compliant’ with their management.
The letter was blunt. ‘Mr Morgan does not accept his illness and refuses to comply with haemo-dialysis. We cannot offer him any further treatment.’ They’d given up on him but the intravenous line remained in his thigh.
Dianne ran a bedside blood test and handed me the result on a slip of paper. ‘His potassium’s through the roof.’
Just as I’d suspected. ‘We’ll have to treat it and I’ll talk to the renal team about admitting him.’ I wrote up a barrage of potassium-lowering medications.
‘Hey, Doc,’ said Bundy, his voice low and scratchy. I returned to his bedside.
‘I wanna go home.’
‘I’ve got to give you some medicine first.’
‘Aw, Doc, I don’t need whitefella medicine.’
‘You might not make it home if you don’t have some treatment. Your heart’s not so good.’
He shrugged. ‘Time I go back to my mother. Mother Earth, you know?’
‘Wouldn’t you like to stay a bit longer—for your family?’
Bundy stared up to the high translucent windows, his only portal to the outside world. ‘In my Country, I never walk alone. I got the land with me, Mother Earth.’
I felt his sadness, but he was philosophical and resolute.
‘You docs think I should live here in Alice. I don’t wanna live here, in the town camp. You tell my wife … I wanna go home.’
The thought of him going home with Christa troubled me. ‘Not sure that’s a good idea, Bundy.’
‘Doc, I wanna go home.’ He continued to stare at the window .
I sighed. ‘How will you get there?’
‘My sons, nephews, they’ll come pick me up.’
I folded my arms across my chest. ‘I need to make
some calls. Stay here, I’ll be back soon.’ He nodded and closed his eyes.
I went to the doctor’s office to page the renal team, and as I waited for them to call back, I wondered whether I was doing Bundy a service or a disservice by keeping him.
Dianne tapped on the door. She was carrying a kidney- shaped dish full of medications drawn up in syringes. ‘Seems Bundy’s left.’
‘What do you mean, he’s left?’ It had only been about ten minutes.
‘Well he’s not in resus anymore.’
I jumped up and pushed past her. The resuscitation bay was empty. The only trace of Bundy was a rumpled, red-dusted sheet. It seemed no one had noticed the critically ill man get up, disconnect himself from the monitors and walk out.
‘He’s done a runner,’ said one of the junior nurses. ‘Gone walkabout,’ sneered another.
‘Why didn’t you stop him?’ I asked.
They stared at me, wide-eyed.
I rushed to the waiting room. All the sick and disparate souls, who had been waiting for hours, looked up in the hope it was their turn to be seen.
‘Anyone seen Christa?’ I asked.
‘She’s gone,’ said a woman with an infant sleeping across her lap. ‘See me next, Doc?’
‘Not yet, sorry.’ I headed for the door and emerged into the heat of the late afternoon. I scanned the hospital forecourt for Bundy or Christa, but couldn’t see anyone resembling them. Most days, many of the Aboriginal patients and their relatives congregated outside. They didn’t seem to like the sterile confines of the hospital. It was too cold—its climate-controlled atmosphere, its synthetic linear surfaces, its racial division. Outside the air was hot and dry and tinged with eucalyptus, not so different from the air in the communities they came from.
A number of folk watched me search the forecourt. I asked them if they knew Bundy or Christa, if they’d seen them. I saw heads shake and one voice piped up.
‘They gone home.’
I looked up and down Gap Road, where the jacarandas had dropped carpets of mauve petals, along with their heavenly scent. Bundy had vanished. I stood on the side of the road searching, but all I could see was the heat shimmer off the bitumen and the imposing MacDonnell Ranges beyond. Their palette of reds and ochres was enhanced against the bright blue of the sky and the afternoon’s long light.
My hospital phone bleeped.
‘It’s David from the renal team. Did you page me?’ ‘Yes, I did, but never mind … the patient’s gone.’ ‘Another absconder? Good-o, I’ve got enough work
Pressing the End button on a hand-held phone was
definitely not as satisfying as slamming down an old-style telephone receiver.
Bundy’s plaintive situation left me feeling hollow. Deep down, my ethical self knew my patient was right, but it rallied against my medical instincts. Dialysis may have prolonged his life, but I wondered—for what? For what, if he was not in his Country, among his people? At least this way he was returning
home. His terms, his Country.
The next day I walked to the Todd riverbed. The river’s channels were shaded. Galahs and corellas trilled among the treetops and I could make out a small group of people congregating around a campfire. I removed my shoes, took my first steps into its sandy expanse and felt the land envelop my feet. It was warm and welcoming.
This story appeared in Breach. Visible Ink Anthology Vol.28
(Clover Press November 2016)